"Fear Not For I Am With Thee"

It is so amazing how the everyday things that we encounter can teach us lessons when we least expect it.  Today after giving Madison and Kelly their baths, I attempted to get one of those nice hot showers that usually do not go uninterrupted.  This time would be no different than any other as I heard a blood curdling scream coming from Kelly Jo out in the hallway.  I got out, unlocked the door, and she burst into my arms crying and saying that Nathan was scaring her.  Trying to not over-react, I told her that it was ok, because she could scare him back and make him run from her.  After we finished talking of different things she could do to get him back, she ran out laughing, ready to meet her attacker.  I heard Nathan scream, smiled, and continued on with my shower, this time not locking the door.  Two minutes later she burst through the door, screaming loudly, and tried to climb in the shower with me.  This time I hollered out to Nathan and told him to stop!  I sent her out into the hall, into his arms, and thankfully (but quickly) finished my shower.

And then it happened!............God began revealing to me another lesson, one that made so much sense to me and actually made me feel pretty ashamed.
How many times in life has Satan hounded me, scared me, even terrified me with worries and things of this world.  I, like Kelly, go running to God, crying about how scared I am.  God comforts me, gives me  His promises from the Bible, and I am off...to fight anything that may get in my way.  But before long the things of this world are once again on me, overwhelming me, and I find myself back on my knees crying out to God for guidance, usually more fervantly than the first time as Satan always comes back stronger when you are standing on God's promises.  Once again, God comforts me and tells me to not be afraid and I go on.
I then thought of how frustrating it was for me, as a mother, to not be able to convince Kelly that I would take care of everything and that she has no reason to be afraid of something so minor.  This is where the shame comes in...Looking at it from this point of view, I am pretty ashamed that I keep running to God with such minor things and don't even remember that this is the One who raised the dead, healed the sick, created the world, and still considers every lily that has ever been planted on the earth!  All I can say, with my whole heart is, "I will try harder, Lord~I will try harder!"